Randomly thinking I'd rather be at home or how much longer I have to be here.
Also while thinking I like being here and wanting to see more of it.
Not sure the extracurricular party favors was a good idea... Feeling exhausted. Knowing that as soon as I get home, I'll be gone for 2 weeks... Thinking I need a break, but that's not gonna happen.
Routines are a pain in the ass, familiarity of location, habits, the safe secure bullshit that we program ourselves for. Then you want to experience the world and when you do you just want to go back home...
Introspection is nice and all but what is the reliability in it to glean relative and valid information. Not too mention how does one regulate their anxiety in those scenarios. Mindfulness, breathing exercises, CBT???
Which reminds me of P and her issues with travel...
Hungry right now but fucking exhausted at the same time...
My youth wasn't aware of itself as I am now...
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