Feeling abit wierd at the moment... perhaps it's the stress at the moment... it's unerving.... I hate being in a position that i can't figure shit out.. and I guess that's my own fault... however I disdain the work environment that I am in... it not that I made a mistake.. it's that my source of information was incorrect.. which honestly wasn't his fault.. due to the fact there were two possible sources...
Sigh... ugh... it's a power struggle....
but alas there are other things that are revealing and disturbing at the same moment... namely the lonliness I'm feeling at the moment...
HEH... the irony of truth....
I've noticed a change on some level.. something that I can't detail or explain... but I have noticed it... conversely it's not that I care (or do I?).. the psyche is a deceitful entity.... I have some very engrained beliefs... one don't trust anyone.. not even myself... and as I get older I'm really believing that everyone has ulterior motives... on almost everything... then again.. I sense this "belief" has gotten a bit stronger in the past year or so...
My mind is a jumble of thoughts at the moment... I'm stressed and anxious... I want to run and vomit... but sleep at the same time.. I hate this place...
Thursday, June 17, 2010
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