Str8 A's

So I've lost a little over 2 lbs this week so far... and I was thinking if I should blog about the weight loss scenario or not, however it did get me thinking about goals... and I'm not sure I mentioned this before or not..but it was a few weeks back and I had a remembered revelation so to speak.. one of those moments that you look back on your life and go... really I did that??.. and I realized that i use to actually be goal driven.. I would set goals and generally I would achieve them it was kinda of surprising.. namely when I got straight A's... once... it was relatively easy know that I think about it.. I just did what I needed to do..I didn't screw around in class and paid attention..and lo an behold I got straight A's.. but as I look back there was also the realization later on that I could still screw up and get good grades.. I managed a 3.5 honor roll and got high all the time.. I guess now that I'm older I'm sorta looking back on things and kinda of going I want my solitude..or at least my solitude and accomplishments... not that accomplishments mean shit... I'm trying to resolve to not being apathetic about myself "so much"...  I have a general apathy towards 99% of most everything... I'm not going to delude myself with lofty ideological goals and what not.. fuck that.. fuck politics.. fuck god.. fuck the new world order.. fuck governments.. fuck those who are trying to control me.. whether it's corporations or red china (just though i'd throw that in there.. it's a joke by the way)...

I'm taking a agnostic hedonistic approach to life from now on... I may expand on this.. some more.. but feel free to ask me questions if you like..

I have some fucking goals for my life.. and I'm feeling pretty fucking optimistic about myself.... for once.. in a LONG LONG LONG ass time... I'm not going use my life as an excuse anymore or my circumstances... and honestly I JUSt DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE...

Previosuly it was I don't give a fuck because everything is going to end.. a nihilistic approach towards life.. now I'm wanting to be a bit more focused and do some shit instead of sitting back and bitching about it... Damn my legs hurt... and I've strated to progress a bit on the Wii Fit program... I figure it'll take a me a month to get ramped up a bit.. but the 2 lbs is promising.. albeit small.. it's promising.. and I did it in 2 days... so we'll see... plus I have another movie idea...